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[onlyeverdoubted]

I'm just going to assume this is Hux, what do you need?

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[neverjoinyou]

Luke nods, noting Bodhi's tension without remarking on it, and closes his eyes again. This time, he actually does what he says, trying to sooth the ache, while putting something in the place of the hole inside him. He's not sure what the result will be, or even that Bodhi will thank him for it--but he does know that he will be less raw. Less incomplete. In the long term, he has to believe that will be better than this. It's like draining an infected wound, or clearing away the dead flesh. At least it will heal.

He opens his eyes again, skin flushed, breath heavier, but expression satisfied.

"That's all I can do--for now," he says. "I'll check with you in a few days to see if... if you notice any change."

[onlyeverdoubted]

He wishes he could say he felt anything other than drained and miserable, but it's not that strange. "It... I mean... I've had broken bones, I don't, um, I don't expect it to just all be... fixed. Thanks." There's a Jedi tending to his little memory problem and all he can be is sulky and tired. Of course. Typical.

[neverjoinyou]

But I should be able to do it, Luke thinks, a little desperately. He's going to have nightmares now, thinking about what could possibly have done this to the man. But he just nods.

"Then to continue the bone thing, I think we can at least keep it from grinding. But I want you to tell me anything that changes, or you feel, that even might be related."

[onlyeverdoubted]

"I, um, I'll try." He has no idea what he'd be looking out for, and he knows himself well enough to be sure he wouldn't bother Luke without good reason. "It's... I've... This happened a few days before I g-got here. So. It's clearly not an emergency."

[neverjoinyou]

Luke props his knees up, curling his arms around them as he watches Bodhi. "No," he says, "maybe not. But it is serious. And I don't want you living with the results any longer than you have to."

[onlyeverdoubted]

Bit too late for that. "I really don't expect to come out normal the other side, you know? Just, maybe, um, a little more functional." He's really, honestly trying to be pleasant and polite right now. He'd just a bit of a poor judge of what constitutes either.

[neverjoinyou]

Luke smiles thinly.

"It's the expecting to come out normal I'd worry about," he says. "I remember, when I first got here. Someone sat me down and said, basically, when are you gonna deal with all this trauma you've been through?" Luke shrugs. "I said, 'what trauma?' Because I truly hadn't thought to question it--it was just my life. But we all have things that we live through--if we're lucky--that we have to deal with. And that will leave us changed. I just think you and I... have lived lives without a lot of space to ask those questions."

[onlyeverdoubted]

Pleasant and polite and grateful and not irritated. He keeps his composure with some help from being worn out. Keeps the generally irksome sensations from bubbling up with much energy. "Not dealing with it all the time is sort of the goal, here."

[neverjoinyou]

"Maybe," Luke shrugs. He flexes the fingers of his right hand. "I could've not dealt with having no hand, but then... I wouldn't have had a hand."

[onlyeverdoubted]

He doesn't think much of the analogy, but. Polite. "As long as you can get through the day, either way seems workable?"

[neverjoinyou]

Luke is quiet for a moment. He knows he's not getting through--but he also doesn't know why Bodhi would want this fixed, if he doesn't want to move forward.

"If that's your goal," he says softly.

[onlyeverdoubted]

"As opposed to what? I--thanks. For this." He stands to go before he loses his composure entirely. He's not even mad at Luke (well, not very), just exhausted and touchy and at the end of his patience for... everything.

[neverjoinyou]

As opposed getting to the next one, Luke doesn't say. But then, he's always had trouble not wanting to rush forward. Maybe Bodhi has a point. He rises and nods.

"You're welcome," he says. "I... hope it helps." He's humbled, still, by the opportunity. The trust.

He's just not sure he's done any good.

[onlyeverdoubted]

"Well, it can't make things worse." Which expression of tired pessimism is probably not in proper accordance with his whole be polite plan. But he's out of that particular energy, and all he's intent on now is making his escape.