"It's the expecting to come out normal I'd worry about," he says. "I remember, when I first got here. Someone sat me down and said, basically, when are you gonna deal with all this trauma you've been through?" Luke shrugs. "I said, 'what trauma?' Because I truly hadn't thought to question it--it was just my life. But we all have things that we live through--if we're lucky--that we have to deal with. And that will leave us changed. I just think you and I... have lived lives without a lot of space to ask those questions."
Pleasant and polite and grateful and not irritated. He keeps his composure with some help from being worn out. Keeps the generally irksome sensations from bubbling up with much energy. "Not dealing with it all the time is sort of the goal, here."
Luke is quiet for a moment. He knows he's not getting through--but he also doesn't know why Bodhi would want this fixed, if he doesn't want to move forward.
"As opposed to what? I--thanks. For this." He stands to go before he loses his composure entirely. He's not even mad at Luke (well, not very), just exhausted and touchy and at the end of his patience for... everything.
As opposed getting to the next one, Luke doesn't say. But then, he's always had trouble not wanting to rush forward. Maybe Bodhi has a point. He rises and nods.
"You're welcome," he says. "I... hope it helps." He's humbled, still, by the opportunity. The trust.
"Well, it can't make things worse." Which expression of tired pessimism is probably not in proper accordance with his whole be polite plan. But he's out of that particular energy, and all he's intent on now is making his escape.
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"It's the expecting to come out normal I'd worry about," he says. "I remember, when I first got here. Someone sat me down and said, basically, when are you gonna deal with all this trauma you've been through?" Luke shrugs. "I said, 'what trauma?' Because I truly hadn't thought to question it--it was just my life. But we all have things that we live through--if we're lucky--that we have to deal with. And that will leave us changed. I just think you and I... have lived lives without a lot of space to ask those questions."
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"If that's your goal," he says softly.
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"You're welcome," he says. "I... hope it helps." He's humbled, still, by the opportunity. The trust.
He's just not sure he's done any good.
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