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[onlyeverdoubted]

I'm just going to assume this is Hux, what do you need?

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[hoardsrealestate]

I don't know. So I'm just going to have to try until I find something. I don't -- find much of anything here applicable to what's waiting for me at home.

[onlyeverdoubted]

Nothing... nothing that happens here is useful. I mean, I supposed you know how to cook now, but not in a way that could turn into a useful occupation even if you wanted it to.

[As far as he can tell everybody's just supposed to busy up their time while they wait for sudden moral reformation to happen.]

There's the library. Though that's... just research. Not the same as really learning to do anything. Better than nothing.

[hoardsrealestate]

[ He's quiet for a moment, mostly because mention of the library reminds him of two things. ]

...Someone gave me a book to read last month. Because of 'banned books' in their world, I suppose. I only bring it up because something I've been avoiding thinking about was the other me, on that other barge. He was very different, for all his experience, just for how much time he devoted to ruminating. Over everything.

I don't consider myself an unthoughtful person, but when you're beset by just an ongoing torrent of ennui, all you can really do is think. Or train. Even when I couldn't move I was doing that.

...What I mean is to say I've hesitated to follow his example for obvious reasons.

I don't want to be broken the same way he was.

[onlyeverdoubted]

[Bodhi does his best to follow, keeping careful track of the little, quiet reveals here. He knew Freeza was rattled by that other self, but this is a new aspect.]

Having a map to becoming the worst version of yourself is... disquieting.

[He still doesn't like to think of a few of his iterations. How easily it could have been even worse. How much he'd prefer to believe that this now is the bottom of the barrel.]

I understand being shy of a path that looks similar. But you know how it got as bad as it did. If you can't pursue any avenue that looks too similar to his, I'd worried you'll... stay stuck.